as i mentioned to one SA guide recently, i'll let my 1000's of words tell 1000's of words, not a couple pictures that are easy, also, to take out of context. i'm only a semi son-of-a-bitch. i think. maybe one or two of you think of me as a full-on s.o.b.
that might be all it takes to make me a full-on s.o.b.
i am not sure
i might not be the best source for definitives on identification judgements and labeling
anywho, i'm almost of of SA limbo. my soul or principles or unspoken current/former/future guide consciousness had me reeling off a few paragraphs recently. maybe you read, skimmed, and/or heard about them. that in many ways counts as the exit survey i was already writing in my mind, but which nobody asked for after my dismissal.
now, i'd like to say a few choice words about the people of SA, which i had also been mentally writing. reflection on the amount of time i was putting into contemplating departure letters let me know it was time to put in my notice. i did. the game's changed a bit since then, but that doesn't mean my blacklisted arse has chosen a black heart. quite the contrary, i think.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptuwl6_QqBw - the only musical link in this post.
will w - you were the first person to call me out at SA. on my 1st or 2nd day, because i smelled like cigarette smoke. ha. thanks. you also have one of the most serene auras this side of the indian ocean. i think very highly of you and i plan to stay in touch.
adam t - it was sweet working with you. you've got some personality. give nathan my love, seeing as i doubt i'll be house-sitting for you any longer :)
chris m - do you know who i am? haha. i like that you're a surfer.
becky - i love the big decisions you're making for you and nick. you'll have to find others to replace me for hugs. they're there.
darrell - hilarious. strong.
tracy - loving. winning smile. like charlie sheen winning. maybe even better
erin - well-rounded. sharp. real.
nichol - you have lots of talents, and lots of SA power. probably that power will grow.
willie - an amazing addition to SA. great food, effort, plans, and attitude.
nancy - i am glad to never have to set another watch alarm again to make sure i distribute medications on time...which i probably would mess up anyway. i loved your stories. thanks for being a sweetheart.
drexel - thanks for the tip on fish oil. and for the adjustments. and the discussions on balance.
rick sauce - pow! big love
leah - you've been loved by kids there for quite some time. seems they dig that you bring some real work, real personality, and real discussions. if you just got your MA - congrats! if not, soon, i'm sure. you're pretty awesome.
anna - i've enjoyed our interactions from chef's goodbye party onward. "I am as bad as the worst, but, thank God, I am as good as the best," w. whitman, "forgiveness is the attribute of the strong," m. ghandi
jtmt - style and substance. nice! now please lead SA schooling in an enriching direction
garrett - you seem to bring something very real to the table
wilbur - i just checked myself for scar tissue, as i wondered if we were siamese twins separated years back
adam l - one of the coolest cats i've ever had the pleasure to know
kaye - repeating my final sentiment to you - you have some specialness within you
emily - you've got eric's spirit in you. nice
eric e - tumbledown mountain. 'nuff said
heather - you seem cool
jd - our approaches are different. our endgame may be the same. i've got lots of love for you. so do the bats. they told me
jesse - i've heard it can be tough to be a kid's guide opposite you, probably cause you're just that cool. makes sense. maybe it's a caffeine thing, since you may drink 5 times more coffee than i do
ethan - keep shooting, you'll hit the mark. sometime
hailey - some of the warmest energy the world has ever known. and you might be the cutest person ever to walk the earth.
victoria - me with female body parts. maybe you, wilbur, and i were triplets. i smile thinking we'll be in each other's presence again. remember the connection between angels and your armpit hair ;)
deluca - i plan to sit around another fire or ten with you someday
therese - there are a few moments from your first ever expo that i often think back on. i'm proud to consider you a friend.
liz d - i think you have the most actualized skill set i've ever seen from a person your age
sonia - "You're rather attractive for a beautiful girl with a great body." if you don't get the quote, that might be 'cause you were laughing even harder than i was, which is impressive.you're a strong one, sonia.
evan - oh so caring. part of your many strengths. i may struggle finding someone to get the quality of hug i got from you.
trish - if i was given a ballot and asked to vote for the coolest person alive, i might just put a check mark by your name
noah - maybe it takes a typical person/family 5 generations to become true Mainer's. i think you are there. live in vermont. live in thailand. underwater. wherever. i'll still consider you a mainer.
liz wp - you were the hardest for me to write for, here. maybe because you've been the person to work the longest, technically, underneath me. and yet, it doesn't really feel that way for me. i was pleased to support basically everything you wanted to do. your initiative is amazing. so is your cooking. "i loved the feeling of you being proud of me, because for the past few years, i hadn't experienced that much." i tear up when i read that. i love you, wp, and once again, i have no intention to ex-communicate myself from you.
mattie - you're like the younger brother i didn't ignore. i've gotta believe it hurts to use one's heart and soul the way you do, and yet there it is, front and center.
sauce - you don't chop the beard if i don't cut my hair. shall we shake on it?
matt b - not hard to see why, probably, everybody we know likes you. you're good
hudson - thanks for the guitar serenade the last night i saw you. and no, i'm not putting out because of that. but yes, i do love you
jami - seems you've found a nice direction in the midst of running around in circles, physically and mentally. cheers darling. our time is not over.
mik - if your thought is right, and reincarnation is real, rather than a spiritual concept designed by the ruling class to keep millions - now billions - of lower class people happily in physical and mental poverty, then we've got a couple few more go's at this. together. i look forward to them.
another bob asked, "how does it feel, to be on your own, with no direction home, like a complete unknown?" is there a word or feeling that encompasses about every feeling out there? that sounds about right.
it's been real, y'all. be well. peace
added via facebook comments because i am forgetful and kinda cognitively lazy:
me - Andrew Farris. I totally own that I forgot to include you in the blog. You, the only official male follower I have there. We have lots in common: lit enjoyments, fav tom robbins book, a zestto quest and create. And rachel. :)
Maybe next time we see each other, we trade a hemingway for a bukowski. Note, bukowski says only early hemingway is worthwhile. So there's that. Much love you red bearded dancing bear
me - Ps - I aver that I forgot andrew not because of thoughtlessness, or a ginger distaste, but because of his forgettable job
andrew - thanks for including rachel in the list. onward!
me - :)
me - Pps - I must also have a slight case of dyslexia. anson. I did come to love, appreciate, and respect you the more I worked with you. You already are a wonderful papa. Stay golden
me - I must really suck. Greg - our histories and some of our theories are pretty alike. You'rea nice mix of caring, conspiratorial, and radical. I'd love to watch you drum. Maybe we jam together one day down the line. I like that plan. First - I learn an instrument.
me - Unless we're counting the gimp, I'm pretty sure that's it. Oh gimpy gimp gimp
if i forgot anyone, then i deserve to be punished. flogged.
maybe the 2 girls that supposedly haunt SA. girls - i seriously doubt you are active spirits, so now i'm talking to myself. great. i'll get used to that
There's not even a shred of S.O.B in you. Just saying. Not to mention, your mama is a lovely.
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